As I've been reconnecting with old friends I have had this thought. If they have changed and how? I would like to think I've changed, and I know I have in some respects, but I don't think I've changed as much as I thought I would by now. I have become more reserved. I got married so that changed the whole flirting and boy crazy thing. The funny thing is I feel more secure being married, and at the same time I still have the same insecurities that I did then. Having 3 kids has totally changed my body and I am trying to come to grips with that and realize that bodies change and it's a process and I have to be patient, but I'm as insecure with my body now as I was back in high school. How sad. I used to never get sick on rides at amusement parks, but now it's all I can do to keep my stomach on a lot of them. On the positive side, I think I'm a better friend now than I used to be. I'm not as crazy of a roller coaster, and I definitely appreciate my parents more. Hmmm....I would like to know any of your thoughts. Have you changed and how?
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You are hilarious! I think we all have changed. At least I hope so, can you imagine being the same girl you were in high school! Talk about trouble! :P I will agree- you are a lot more reserved. hee hee. I know I've changed! Definitely have the body issues- but I didn't have those back then. I so like who I am now though, I will say that. I have things to work on as a wife and another and an individual- but overall I think I am a good person. And if you disagree don't tell me :) LOL
Body image is a huge one. Its funny how your spouse can say "Oh, you're beautiful just the way you are" but I have to think he's lying because he said the exact same thing 30 lbs ago...so which is it? Were you lying then or now? LOL I wish I appreciated my teenage body WAY more than I did. Its funny how you talk about the sick to the stomach thing. I get sick with anything now days. A few months ago I was watching home movies and just the unsteadiness of the camera made me need to throw up.
Emotionally, I think my biggest change has been happening very slowly over the years. It stems from a card mom gave me after I was so devistated over a break up. In the card all she wrote was "This too shall Pass". Back then I didn't that was possible, but its amazing how much that card comes back to me in so many aspects of my life now.
On a side note: I just hope someday I can learn to forgive myself for choices I made way back then. They haunt me and I worry that others in my past might still see me as that person. But I have to let it go. Nothin I can do. I just remind myself to concentrate and enjoy the 5 or 6 years I have left with my girls still at home. Mary, you should download "You're Gunna Miss This" on your songs. :)
Love you. You're awesome and Im so glad you are my sis.
BTW - Dont get too reserved. Remember I go to my baby sister to fight my battles LOL
ummmm yeah i would hope i have changed since highschool. I was tall akward and soooo insecure so i am still tall, but with Grant I don't feel as akward anymore and my insecurities, although still prevelant are not near what they used to be. My body has also changed since having 3 kids in the last 2 1/2 years it frustrates me, but my body has always frustrated me. Its a girl thing i guess. I actually appreciate and love my body more than ever ever before because of what it has accomplished. Pregnancy is an amazing thing and i have to take some credit for 3 pretty dang cute and healthy little boys.
Anyways Mary i miss you!!! I feel like i have known you forever, but i didn't know you in high school i wonder if the two of us would have connected back then. .. i would like to think so. :)
Mary,
I just decided that you need to (when its good for you) go back to school and be a teacher. (Either high school or college level) You come up with some pretty thought provoking questions that allow for an open discussion. Excellent!
Love you
I am sooo not the same person I was in high school. I'm so much more easygoing, and I know so much more about the world and about myself. I'm also a lot less judgemental of others, and more understanding of all the different types of people that make the world go round. I'm a lot more confident and happy. I have MAJOR body issues, but we won't go into that. Who doesn't have those these days? :)
I am loving these comments! Thanks!
Oh, I hated high school! But have I changed? oh goodness yes!
I have been to h**l and back in the past couple of years, but doing that has made me the woman I am, and I like her much more than I thought I could.
I think change is good - so long as you like the change.
And as for my body goes, no - it isn't perfect, but there are so many more important things to worry about, who has time to think about sizes? Without putting in a really long post, Katie has started asking me if I am okay with how big my belly is, and she tells me that I should "make it smaller": this from a 7 year old. After thinking a lot about her comments I now tell her this: Heavenly Father made me this way when I had you and your brothers, and I wouldn't change me for the world. I love myself, and I love you, and there is nothing that either of us needs to change.
If there is one thing I want my kids to learn, it is that they are perfect just the way they are
(and so am I)
And so are you Mary Williams! Just the way you are!
Ironically, I'm more myself now than I used to be. Back then I didn't have any idea a thing about myself. Not for real. I was always trying too hard and in the wrong way to be whatever or whoever anyone thought I was supposed to be. When I'm around my friends now and around my husband and kids I can be myself completely, I can like what I like and be as smart or as dumb as I am about whatever it may be, and be mad, happy, sad, etc whenever I really am. But when I start reaching out to people I knew before, I start worrying about what they think all over again. -Even with family. -About whether they would consider me "successful" or mature, or still just above being a total loser! (ya gotta love school, right? NOT) And physically, let's just say nobody would ever again call me "bubble-icious". ;) Two kids later and a few major bouts with my thyroid later I'm afraid to actually get on the scale. I know I'm getting bigger because I have to keep shopping and goodwill-ing and not for a good reason.
All in all I'm a lot happier now than I was in high school, and I see more potential in myself than I ever did before, but I still wonder if I will ever reach it!
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